Innocent soul

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My teeth chattered together as I walked down the streets of New York; suit case in hand looking for the closest shelter to park myself into. The thin jacket I wore didn’t help me considering it was snowing down extremely hard I could barely see. My flip flops that got stuck in the snow every five seconds didn’t help either. I sighed in relieve as I seen the dim open sign light that was plastered in the window and hurriedly entered  heading for the desk where I saw a women on the phone laughing . I Waited patiently untill I realized she hadn’t noticed me.

“Excuse me” I said my voice coming out a whisper. She looked up at me with a smug look on her face causing me to feel the need to apologize. She rolled her eyes telling the person on the phone she’ll call them back.

“How may I help you?” she asked with a bored tone.

“Um are any rooms available?” she looked me up and down, shaking her head.

“Yes there’s a room down the hall the fourth door down on the left, here’s a key.” Her voice had a hint of sympathy in it.

I gave off a fake Smile “Thank you”. I pulled my suitcase behind me walking into the room she assigned.  Walking into the room that I quickly became familiar with. I plopped down on the squeaky bed and tucked my feet under the warm comfator thawing my toes out. Falling asleep resting my aching legs.

The thing that I hate about shelters are you have to wake up at a certain time to eat breakfast and no you don’t wake up when you want to you wake up when the tell you too. I groaned as the maintenance banged on each door telling us to get up. Not knowing what the time was all I had to do was look outside and see the sun was just rising. I sighed throwing my feet over the bed and stretching I reached for my suitcase heading toward the front doors of the building.

“Um sweetie breakfast is this way.” I heard a women say. I turned immediately recognizing her from last night; she smiled at me with happy eyes instead of mean.

“Uh thanks but I’m going to be headed out now. Job hunting.” She looked around before nodding her head giving me that look that I’m starting to hate … sympathy.

“Well, good luck.”  I nodded “Thanks”

After hours of filling out application after application I decided to stop once I seen that it was dark outside. I sighed, knowing I probably wouldn’t get the job because they have no way of communicating with me... welp I did that for nothing. I looked down at the boots I literally snagged from a homeless man for 10 dollars. Leaving me with 5 dollars left to my name. Excellent. I sighed leaning against the building  opening my suitcase finding the sweater that I loved ,  my grandmother gave me it before she died it was furry and had  a kitten on it with whiskers . It gave me some amazing memoirs. I leaned off the wall and continued to walk untill something caught my eye. The sigh said “Candy land” Squinting my eyes I looked closer “gentlemen’s club” and then on the window it said “help wanted” Oh hell no … I shook my head almost making it pass when I remembered my close friend a long time ago telling me they made great money . Don’t do it. But I need the money. I sighed. Mis-well. I pulled my suitcase into the ally hoping and praying it would be there when I got back. I was not about to bring my stuff up in there.  I pulled the door open immediately bumping into a stripper it looked like. I blushed as she looked me up and down. She smiled. I put my head down.

“Lost?”

“Uh no, I seen the help wanted sign.” She smiled sticking her hand out.

“Samantha known around here as white chocolate , you see those stairs over there on the right go up those and go talk to the boss .” she said . I smiled when I heard her country accent.
 

“Thank you”  

“You’re welcome suga’ .”

Aubrey

          “Look I just need a couple of months and I promise this will become a success I just need more dancers that’s all .” I spoke in to the phone pacing back and forth in my office .

“Fine but that’s it , if you don’t get those stats up ima shut down “candy land” and you my sir will be the brokest man alive do you understand , so I suggest you work fast and hurry up because your time is running up.” Click. Fuck that muthafucka hung up on me . Shit . I took a deep breath scratching my head , and plopping down in my seat. Now I really know this nigga aint playin’ I need to think of something and fast.  My thoughts got interrupted by a knock . “What ?!?” I snapped looking up at my bodyguard .

“Uhm there’s a young lady to see about a job here.”

“Well what the fuck are you doing ? Bring her ass here.” He said a low ‘yes sir’ letting the most beautiful girl in my office . My mouth gaped open as I looked at her brown eyes ‘thank god we have good lighting in this bitch .’ I silently said to myself as I scanned her face and her fucking body I licked my lips looking over her thick thighs . What the fuck … She had the most innocent brown eyes . Her face became redder and redder as I looked at her . Oh hell .. She has fucking dimples . I licked my lips as I watched her bit her bottom lip ‘ keep doing that and I’m going to throw your ass on this desk’ my thoughts were over flowing . They immediately stopped once  I heard her angelic voice .

“Hi , I’m Nicki ; I was looking at the ‘help wanted sign’ outside and decided to come check it out.” Her voice .. So light .. So sweet . What the hell was she doing over here in this part of New York . Hell what the fuck is she doing in my office ? I’m not about to make this girl dance …naked in front of .. Oh hells fuck that. I must have been staring at her for too long because she started heading for the door .
 

 “Well I’m sorry I disturbed you I’ll be heading out now .”  She gave an apologetic smile and started opening the door.

“No . No . NO , I’m sorry you just caught me off guard ; please have a sit .” She smiled bowing her head slowly sitting down . 

I chuckled lightly at her kitten sweater . I really hope she’s not here for a dancer position .

“So how can I help you” .” I asked trying to sound as professional as possible . Because lord knows …

“Uhm, I would like to become a dancer.” Shit.  

 “And can I ask your age ?” I questioned causing a blush to rise on her cheeks .  

“Nineteen .” Uh .

“Uhm I’m sorry , but you have to be 21 & Up to become a dancer .” totally making this shit up.

“Oh.” I see a wave of disappointment wave over her face . Her head bowed as if she was embarrassed .

“Well , I’m sorry for wasting your time” She got up and turned . Oh god … her ass . Fuck.

“Wait.. I’ll let you be a waitress.” She turned around and lifted an eyebrow.

“You’ll be serving drinks and food to the gentlemen that come here to see the dancers . You get good tips ; if you’re nice and you won’t have to take your clothes off. You may need to wear something provocative but that’s about it.”  She smiled .

“Okay.” Thank god.

“Alright , well just give me your number an—“

“Don’t have one .”  

“Home phone?” She shook her head . Damnit.

“Well when you will be able to start .”Hell she’s making me do things I never done before.

“Uh tonight . Everyday actually . I’m available.” Perfect.

“Well welcome to the team Nicki . Around here I’m known as boss , but to you ;you can call me Aubrey.” I said taking her hand in mine .  Perfect just wonderful.

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Hurt ... (oneshot)

Authors Note : Okay , Guys ... im warning you . This is update is inspired by Christina Aguleria - Hurt . And you guys may not like me after this . It made me shed a couple of tears . *sigh* ... Read at your own risk . Enjoy .

Wiping the tears that caressed down his face, he tried controlling his breathing. As he impatiently waited for the doctors to come out and tell him what he wanted to know. It’s been over eight hours and they still haven’t come and told him anything, shaking his leg, finally seeing the doctor comes out. More tears leaked from his eyes as he saw all the blood that drenched his gown. Staring at the doctor had a solemn look on his face, already letting his know what he was about to tell him. Walking up to him, that doctor patted his shoulder, shaking his head “I’m sorry Mr. Graham”.

No, No, no... Is all that he repeated in his head ignoring the several of doctors and nurses that he pushed pass, telling him not to go in the room. But he did and there she was. Purple, lifeless. Drenched in blood. He ran over to her bed side and pulled her into his arms. “Nicki  ...” he sobbed in her neck. Holding on to her now cold skin. “Please …” he crocked out, as tears coated his face. Ignoring the arms that were trying to pry him off the now lifeless body, he covered her in kisses “I’m sorry” He whispered in her ear.

“Babe  ...I Really need to tell you something.”  She whispered as she crawled in the bed pulling the sheets close to her as he threw things around there room creating dents and holes in their walls.  He came home from the club … drunk once again. Nicki really had some important new to tell him, but all he did was wanting to argue with her.

“What doooo you wannnt Nickki ?! Damn, you always what something’ from a nigga.” He yelled, causing Nicki’s mouth to gasp open. She hoped out the bed with quickness and stood in front of him.

“What the hell is that suppose to mean?!” She questioned.

“Your heard mee ! Your just like the rest of the hoes I’ve delt with !” He said causing him to get a slap to the face .

“Don’t. you. ever ! Call. Me. That. again !” She yelled hitting him in the chest. He grabbed her arms, stopping her.

“Babe I didn’t mean that …” he tried explaining.

“NO! FUCK YOU! ASSHOLE!” She ripped away from him and charged in their closet standing on her tip-toes and pulling down her suitcase. Stuffing her clothes in there, she pushed past him and grabbed her toothbrush out the bathroom.

“Nicki, I didn’t mean it. … please.” he pleaded.

“A drunken man words, is always a sober man’s thoughts.” She whispered wiping the stray tears that rolled down her face.

“Nick-“

“Aubrey … I’m pregnant.” She cut him off.

She looked at his face and seen his bugged eye balls.

“So you really are a hoe? Who’s the father onika ?”

She shook her head grabbing her coat and pulling her suitcase behind her and slipping on her boots.

“I Hate you” She coldly replied heading out the door into the winter snow. Never looking back.

The Next morning, Aubrey awoke to the police at his door telling him that Nicki had been in a survir accident. Not understanding why she wasn’t in the bed next to him made him scared .What happened? He sighed rubbing his head. A Million thoughts went through his head as he drove to the hospital last night came rushing back to his head.

“No, No, No” Was all that came out his mouth.

Hurt is what all that went through his veins. He hurt Nicki. He hurt his baby.

   
Hurt.


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Bittersweet

“Congratulations My Gradates!” Mama Carol & Mama Sandi smiled as Nicki and drake took off there gown, they thanked them with a smile their faces. Both mother’s very proud of their children took pictures and celebrated with balloons and festive. 

Even though, it was a happy day for them it was bittersweet for Nicki and Aubrey today. Nicki was going to college and Aubrey was going to the army forces. Nicki still didn’t know how to handle the news that she received of drake joining the Army.  He was her best friend; her everything and it was really heart wrenching to know that he wasn’t going to be here in New York with her for almost 4 years. Also she couldn’t get the idea of him getting hurt. Drake felt the same; he had lots of concerns like what if she moves on? Or what if she forgets about him. It really scared him, but this was something he wanted to do since he was a little boy. Yea he was scared that something would happen to him or his family while he was gone, but this was his dream was to help people and serve his country.

“We did it!” Nicki squealed jumping into drake’s arms and kissing him on the lips.

“I love you” he smiled wrapping his strong arms around her waist.

“I Love you too babe.” She giggled as he placed light kisses on her neck.

“Awww look at you too!” Mama carol cooed as she snapped a picture of them.

“Sad your leaving before the baby is born” She frowned patting drake’s shoulder. Nicki’s smile dropped along with drakes. Nicki was pregnant and she was 8 months, being a teen mother while in school was hard. But now that she’s going to be without drake was going to be even harder … he was going to miss 4years of his son’s life and she won’t have him there to help her.

“Sweetie I didn’t mean to upset you.” Mama carol sighed as drake placed Nicki down.

“No, no you’re okay ma ... I’m fine” Nicki confirmed wiping the stray tears that fell from her eyes. 

Mama carol let out a deep sigh. She wasn’t too fond of drake’s decision on leaving, she kind of thought he was being self-fish. She tried to change his mind but there was no way of changing that boys mind. He had it all set.

  

“Is everything okay?” Mama Sandi asked carrying a tray of food.

“Everything’s fine ma” Drake said. Mama Sandi loved the fact that he wanted to help his country. She loved the fact that he was joining the army... just like her father and his father had done. Even though she wished he didn’t have to leave so early, she was proud of her son either way. Especially about the graceful life that was about to be born.

“Alright well I figured you were hungry, so here’s some food.” She smiled walking out to the party.

It never really crossed drake’s mind that he was leaving Nicki with a baby to take care of by herself, but he knew he couldn’t go back on his decision now. He took a deep breath as he picked Nicki up bridal style 

 and carried her up the stairs, holding her all night letting her spill out all her emotions.

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Nicki Sobbed for the life of her clinging onto drake’s torso at the airport. She felt like her heart was being ripped out of her chest and being placed on that air craft, she didn’t want to let him go. Drake choked back tears as he held her tightly, rethinking this whole decision for the 50^th time. He didn’t want to miss out on what was to come; he didn’t want to leave Nicki all by herself.  He didn’t want to miss out on the birth of his son, or his first birthday, or second, or third; fourth, His first day of pre-school. Tears shimmered down his cheeks, quickly wiping them away he signed deeply as the intercom spoke:

  

All marines please board your aircraft; we are set to disport in 5minutes … 5minutes.

Nicki sobbed harder squeezing him to death.  Aubrey rubbed her belly feeling the kicks of their son.

“Nicki I Love you, Please know that I will always love you with all my heart.”

“I Love you too.” She croaked

“Please look at me nic .” She looked up at him hiccupping, trying to regain her breath.

“Write me, send me pictures. Don’t forget about me. I Love you, and I don’t want you to stress yourself out while I’m gone. I want you to take care of our son and be a great mother. You understand?”

Nicki nodded sniffing, he sighed kissing her forehead and taking his thumbs wiping her tears. Getting on his knees he kissed her belly.

“I Love you little man, take care of you mommy for me. Okay? I’ll see you soon.” Aubrey smiled as he felt him kick.

Standing back to his feet he brought Nicki into a long deep kiss.  Skin being chewed on and pulled; lips being tugged on and licked. Nicki smiled as he brought his lips to her neck giving her raspberries, causing her to laugh out loud.

Aubrey smiled “That’s what I was waiting to hear.” She giggled then sighed when the intercom went off telling marines to board.

He tried to take a step back, but Nicki wrapped her arms around his neck. “Nooooo please don’t goo” she wined. He sighed shaking his head.

“Alright, close your eyes.” she did as she was told.

“Now gimmie kiss.” She placed her swollen lips on his and pecked his lips.

“Okay, now count to ten.”

“Uh? Okay...1..2..3..4..5..6..7..8..9…10”  And when she opened her eyes he was gone .  \

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Hey babe , today our little pumpkin decided to start crawling ! He's so cute with his boo-legged self . :) Is'nt crazy how fast he's growing up ?! It feels like he was just born and now our little lambchop is one !! He said dada today when he saw that picture you sent last week . He went CRAY-ZEEE . All i heard was "Da-da dadadadadadadad" haha . Ooh ! And i took this picture of him today he still likes to have those sink baths so you'll probably see that in this envolope  . But i gotta go ! (He just woke up , sorry it's so short :\) 

Xoxoxo Love , Nicki & Aubrey   

Happy birthday Aubrey !

“Babe … babe wake up .... wake up !” She nudged him. “Babbyy , wakey , wakey .” She bends down as much as she could & placed a kiss on his neck . “Babyy .. Please wake up I just wanna spent time with you on your birthday …”  

He smirked but quickly went back to a straight face when he felt her move .

 She sighed . “We’ll just have to wait for daddy .. Then .”  

He felt the bed move and peeked through his eyes seeing her sitting with a pout . Her stomach grumbled causing her to frown.

  

“I know babe … but I really wanna wait for daddy .. It’s his birthday .”After about 5 minutes of playing around with her , he opened his eyes but didn’t find Nicki there . He shrugged already knowing where she always went , especially when she was bored . Brushing his teeth he went straight to the baby nursery and smirked at the sight in front of him . Nicki had the headphones around her belly with a cd player in hand , her doctor told her that the music would sooth the baby ; so Nicki did it often . He cleared his throat catching her attention causing her to smile .

“May I interrupt ? Orr ..”  She smiled wider  trying to get up but struggled , drake hurried to her side pulling her up .

“No , you didn’t interrupt anything .”  She squealed wrapping her arms around his neck . She pulled him into a long kiss , dropping her arms around his waist hugging him tight like a   

“Happy birthday babe .” She mumbled in his stomach .

“Thank you babe .” he smiled rubbing her back . Their moment was interrupted when he felt the grumbling feeling between them , instantly causing him to feel bad .

“Hungry ?” he asked . She nodded . “I made us breakfast but you were sleep so I wanted to wait for you .”  

He smiled pulling her close . “You’re so good to me .” he felt her laugh in her chest .

“You I know ... now come on , I wanna eat ; you already made me & the baby wait long enough .”

                             

                              They sat on the couch watching Nicki’s favorite movie salt .  Throughout the whole movie drake noticed how much uncomfortable she had gotten , he would try to comfort her but that wasn’t working . “Nicki , babe are you okay ?”  

“Yeaa .. I think I need to go to the bathroom , I’ll be back .” She used her hand and pushed herself up and held her 9 month old belly ; wobbling to the bathroom .  

No longer than 2 minutes  he heard her call out . “AUBREY !” he franticly dropped his phone in his wine glass , not really caring and running to the bathroom .   He walked in a seen a hunched over Nicki with a pool of water between her legs

 “W-what’s wrong ?”  

“The baby.. I think it’s time ..” she tried saying as calm as possible .

 “IT’S TIME ?!?!!!” “WHAT DO YOU MEAN IT’S TIME !?!!!?”

 “LOOK ! JUST GET OUR BAGS AND GET ME TO THE HOPSIBTAL ! .” She yelled back.

  

“Okay .. Lemme just sit you on the couch .” he grabbed her elbow carefully walking her back to the couch & placing her on it .

 “Okay I’ll be back , just breathe .” he stated calmly backing up as he watched her breathe in and out , sprinting up the stairs he grabbed the baby bag & her bag along with her phone and charger . Grabbing his keys he headed straight for the stairs and to the front door , unlocking his car door ; he threw the bags into the back seat and ran back inside grabbing Nicki’s famous slippers walking back over to a hunched up Nicki . He sighed , quickly picked her up .  

“Babe are you having any contractions ?” She nodded humming her life away . “How much pain are you in ?”

 “A lot .” she groaned as tears coated her face . “Alright babe , were going to be there very shortly .” She just hummed trying to subside the pain .

 After placing Nicki In the car , he started his car up and pulled out the drive way with quickness . On the way to the hospital he started to call his family and friends along with Nicki’s using his emergency phone . They all said they’ll be there as soon as possible causing drake to have some relief . 

 “Alright baby … where here … I’m gonna go get you a nurse okay ?”  

“Mhmm , just hurry babe .” 

“Excuse me , my wife is in labor I need some assistance .” He said to the receptionist at the front desk of the emergency department .

“I’m going to call down a nurse , and you can take one of those wheelchairs & get her okay  ?” He nodded taking a wheelchair that was rowed up .

When he got out side and walked over to the passenger side & seen the door open with Nicki hunched over again holding her abdominal . 

“Oh , there you are I was about to go look for you .” she breathed breathless . Drake shook his head  this lady ..

‘Babe I’m gonna put you in the wheelchair and the nurse is going to get you right into the delivery room .”  

“Okay .”

He placed his hands under her armpits and placed her in the wheelchair as carefully as he could .

Wheeling her in their was a nurse to take her straight into the delivery room , letting Nicki change into her grown with the help of drake & hooked her up to her iv and hooked the heart monitor to her belly . 

“Can I get an epidural ?” Nicki asked as sweat caressed her forehead and tears streaming down her face from the pain .

“No sweetie , from the look of it you’re fully dilated , that baby needs to come out .” Nicki chocked up tears leaning into drake , he rubbed her hair trying to calm her down .

 “I’ll be back I’m going to get the doctor , so we can pop that baby out .”

After about 5 minutes the doctor  in and took down her information . 

“So onika , are you ready ?”  She nodded groaning in pain as the doctors assistant nurses prospered her legs on the legs holders .

“Okay .. On the count of three , I want to push .”

“1…2…3 Push!” Drake held her hand as she pushed her life away , he watched her face scrunch up and release . Smiling when he heard the doctor say “I See the head “ he looked over her leg and scrunched up his face in disgust but continued to smile as the face of the baby appeared .

After a couple more minutes the body came out along with a bolt of cries , drake smiled as the baby boy was placed on his mother’s chest . Nicki examined him with tears rolling down her face and a big smile on her face. 

“Happy birthday Aubrey.”

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